I've been praying for a particular need for quite some time. Over a year in fact. I've asked my small group bible study to pray, my church exec team and those that participate in a larger group prayer circle...all to pray for this need. I prayed specifically; for this need to occur in order to tie up loose ends and put closure to a painful part of my life. I know that God has His own timing, that things don't often happen as you think they will happen. And as is often the case, your answered prayers don't end up the way you think they will. My prayer, after over a year, was answered last week. A year later, not my timing. Without details, without information, , not like I expected. Without hoopla or drama....the prayer was quietly answered.
And I feel sad. I thought I would feel happy.
Don't get me wrong, I am very grateful the prayer is answered and the wait is over and we can move on and we can have-----CLOSURE. But when an answered prayer leaves you feeling bittersweet about the rest of the picture, you get back down on your knees and start praying new prayers for the rest of your needs. It's very clear to me that God does answer my prayers, maybe not how I expect or when I expect, and maybe not even with "yes" as the answer. But I will continue to move toward Him to get answers so I can grow and move on.
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